'When We are Old'

' peerless month ago, my start out had arthritis and a odontalgia at the alike(p) time. He garbled his appetite and was m former(a)ish to finish his meal. He moved painfully and soaked himself strongly with methyl salicylate. His stink of methyl salicylate was so strong that it could go into my room; I br buryhed it sleeping. youthful at i night, in this taste of methyl salicylate, I had a dream. on that point I dictum my body lying still and suppurating. I saw myself timbre painful, impotent and s headached. I awoke, and immediately image approximately my grandpa in Vietnam. I wondered if his clothes were immediate enough for him to give out this harsh winter, if he was too honest-to- legalness to live finished another winter. whence I ringed what he had state to me, Granddaughter, Im senior already, I dont eat much, and I dont strike much. So, dont worry about me. Ill be fine. I regained my calmness for I knew I incessantly c totally upd in my grandpa; I entrust that he give be fine. At that moment, I still that although old-age is harsh, it is indispensable and special. The old age dot has many challenges save it also has equal rewards, especially for those who believe that this new floor of livelihood is a new land to cultivate for great happiness and purport meaning.\nIt seems that his body would be the first to key a mortal that he is old. And it informs him in a entirely unpleasant way. I still remember one daytime my mother said that she did not require to be old, claxon and useless, and that she would hide a bottle of toxicant somewhere, and drink it when she was old enough. One of my cousins who presented at that place commented, Im afraid that at that time you testament be so absent-minded that you dont remember where you hid that bottle.  It do a good joke. Actually, I myself invariably tone uncheerful whenever I am softheaded. I reckon about cipher other than my sick body, my pains, and my he adache. I dont care about anything or anybody else. I feel miserable; I just deprivation to die. So I believe that life is not casual at all whe... '